Beyond Borders is truly a great experience..
The only thing is latley I've started having this gut wrenching worry about the whole thing and I can't really tell you why. Maybe it's because of this ten week countdown, my upcoming appointment at the clinic or the fact I know zero spanish, or maybe a combination of the three.
I've met some really great people in the program who can now be a great support system, my fundraising is almost finished and my immunizations will be taken care of after this week.
Why then i ask you am I slightly freaking out about this whole thing?
There just seems to be so much to do and really no time to do it. With my sorority, part-time job, volunterring, class and BB as well as trying to see the fam-jam and friends every now and again is starting to serisouly stress me out. Joanne said it's like having a bunch of plates spinning in the air.. but she never did tell me what happens if they fall. I'm sounding slighly like Debbi Downer at the moment and by no means do i want to, I just think the reality of the whole experience is starting to hit me.
I've really wanted to learn some basic spanish before I go, but finding the time has been impossible. I've been told by a BB alumini that Los Pipitos has no English speaking workers. I am sure the other students from different schools will be great but I am just afraid of the isolation. I mean, I already know I'm going to feel isolated at least at the beggining or at many points in between because it's an adjustment.. But if I can't even speak to people that will be surronding me everyday I know I will have a very hard time at least for a little while. Maybe I'm under estimating myself due to my recent mound of worries, or maybe not.
However, on the bright side of things I am very greatful for all of the journaling exercises we've completed throughout the seminars this year. I think they will be a great resource for me while I'm gone and especially while feeling isolated. I know all these worries are a bit much ..